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Part of you is always going to feel inferior

Part of you will always wish you were someone else

And this emotion 

Love or Envy?

x, xin hui

NOT THAT GIRL

Her eyes are charming

And her smile so sweet

Her figure so slim

And her behaviour so demure

I am none of that,

And maybe that's why

x, xh

I DON'T LOVE YOU

I wish I had the courage to say

I don't love you

I wish I had the courage

to spend my birthday alone

I wish I love you

But I don't

x, xh

RIGHT/WRONG

Is it wrong

to be with you

When I don't love you the way you love me

When I don't love you the way I thought I should

When I don't love you...

Is it wrong

to be taking everything from you

and not love you

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CONFUSION

I don't know whether it's "normal"

To like you but hate your smell

To miss you at some times but nitpick at your flaws

Feel grateful for the sweet things you do, yet not miss you throughout the day

I think about other people sometimes

The other guys I can text, on the pretext of being friends

But then, I know it will be unfair towards you.

And I feel constricted

That I now belong to someone...

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SOAR IV

A few days ago, I thought IV would be the last chapter

He didn't reply her texts

He was far away

And I saw her worry

But as of this instant,

She seems relieved that he has replied

But at this point, I already fear that the end is near

Very very near

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THANK YOU

Thank you

For keeping a sacred first

For being so eager to meet the people I love

For trying your best to make me smile

Thank you

For fighting to get more of me every minute

For reassuring me

For moulding me into a healthier me

Thank you

For not wavering

For the good morning texts

Thank you

For letting me remember what it feels like to be cared for again

Is this love?

x, xh